Is this Love?

Let’s have a chat about love, shall we? My experiences alone will tell you that love is a very tricky emotion for me. But, if the love is genuine, I believe it should be as simple as one, two, three...Sooooo...

I think I may love Mr. Perfect! More than that, I think I'm in love with him. That's supposed to be fantastic, isn't it? That’s what we want, and hell, that’s definitely what I want. But the thought alone of falling so hard for someone again makes me nervous...My past relationships are making me question my current feelings.

When I was in my last relationship, I was the first one to say "I love you." which I didn't think was such a bad thing at the time because it was how I felt. I’m very open about my feelings. When I told him, he did not feel the same way at the time. In hindsight, I feel that may have been a warning sign for our future. I may have pushed him into something he didn’t truly want to be a part of.

Now I’m in this new relationship and he's everything I feel I’ve always deserved. Falling for this man has been so effortless...And as much as I want to shout it from the rooftops, I don’t want to make the same mistakes I made in my last relationship. I would rather have him tell me he loves me first before I express my love. Since I am a person who is always open and honest about my feelings, it’s going to be very hard for me not to express these strong feelings.

These feelings don’t feel like a mistake or like they are misguided...I’ve never known love to be this easy, and that’s what makes me worry. Like there’s a catch to these feelings or something. I don’t know how to confirm or deny these feelings. So I plan to just wait and see where they take us. One thing I’m sure of, though, is that I’m happy.

-MB